Thanksgiving is today, one of my favorite holidays. We all went together to Frank and Judi's house, we weren't sure how I would be, but it was good to get out, and be with other people. I got to sit in the recliner, and I stayed until about 5pm. It was a long time sitting in the same place. I am trying to not wish the time away. I am trying to embrace every day, and remember that every day is a gift, that we only get a certain number of them.
I wish I could enjoy the time, and it's difficult to get past the pain that's always in the background. Kym says the pain meds aren't working because I'm always hurting. I think it would be great to feel like I do when they give you mt drugs are morphine, nothing hurts, you can do anything, move as much as you want, and nothing hurts. It's great, but it isn't normal, and it doesn't last. I know the drugs are just masking what is really going on. I know that when they wear off, you really feel the pain of what you did while you were under the influence. That must be why people drink.
I am thinking back to the time during the last knee rehab, when we got to spend a lot of time outside, walking, and going to parks. I guess that isn't going to happen in January in Illinois though. So, I'll try to live every day, being thankful for the day, and the fact that God has given me another one.
I didn't really do any exercise today, I was thinking that a day of rest might be what I needed. Tomorrow I can go back to stretching, walking, and working on getting back to being strong and productive. I am looking forward to getting flexible enough to ride a bike again.
Sleep last night was terrible. I think I laid in bed for 2 hours before I finally fell asleep, I just can't find a repeatable, comfortable position. The new mattress we got this year was a total bust. I should have just stuck to the posturepedic like we had before. You try to save some money, and try something new, and FAIL. I say all the time, you get what you pay for, and now we're paying the price.
I wish I could enjoy the time, and it's difficult to get past the pain that's always in the background. Kym says the pain meds aren't working because I'm always hurting. I think it would be great to feel like I do when they give you mt drugs are morphine, nothing hurts, you can do anything, move as much as you want, and nothing hurts. It's great, but it isn't normal, and it doesn't last. I know the drugs are just masking what is really going on. I know that when they wear off, you really feel the pain of what you did while you were under the influence. That must be why people drink.
I am thinking back to the time during the last knee rehab, when we got to spend a lot of time outside, walking, and going to parks. I guess that isn't going to happen in January in Illinois though. So, I'll try to live every day, being thankful for the day, and the fact that God has given me another one.
I didn't really do any exercise today, I was thinking that a day of rest might be what I needed. Tomorrow I can go back to stretching, walking, and working on getting back to being strong and productive. I am looking forward to getting flexible enough to ride a bike again.
Sleep last night was terrible. I think I laid in bed for 2 hours before I finally fell asleep, I just can't find a repeatable, comfortable position. The new mattress we got this year was a total bust. I should have just stuck to the posturepedic like we had before. You try to save some money, and try something new, and FAIL. I say all the time, you get what you pay for, and now we're paying the price.
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